My Brother Died

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There are no words for how hard today has been. My brother died of a massive heart attack yesterday. My soul aches. I have cried a million tears today. After finding out I wanted to curl into a ball and die. He is my third sibling that has died. Somewhere, I found some strength. I believe in the power of prayer and think that it may have been so many people that were praying that got me through this. I went to where he had been living, met the woman that had been caring for him, and acquired a few of his bandannas & a knife.

If you knew my brother, Will, you would know he was never seen without his bandannas, chain, and leather jacket. He was the most cool person I have ever met. Will was a biker that had many friends. He absolutely loved riding. I hope you can ride in heaven because a bike is the first thing he is going to ask for.

Will had this great laugh and amazing light about him. He always remembered to tell me he loved me and had recently been making an effort to reach out to me to be in my life more.

One memory I want to remember was in December of 2016. He texted me and said for me to call him right back. Worried it was an emergency, I did. It was raining and I was literally almost home. However, he wanted to meet up and I agreed to meet him at Barnes & Noble . This is not something I normally would have done as I was super tired. But I felt led to and did. He was so excited to have a new car to show me. He bought be my first coffee at Starbucks in West Ashley and we walked around the bookstore. He had never been in a Barnes and Noble and was in awe of all the books. He said it would have been nice to have this collection in jail.  He was bummed though that there was not a death metal section in their music collection.  A lady in the store found a pair of biker gloves that she thought belonged to him. They did not however he quickly said he would take them lol. Will loved 3D type things. He ended up buying these 3D glasses that work with an iphone. I know nothing of technology but he enjoyed the idea of playing with them….  He asked me before I headed out if I wanted to check the glasses out with him…. I wish I had….

I miss him so much. I will miss his calls. His different numbers he always seemed to have. His randomness. His crazy cussing. His demeanor . All of it. So much.

The last time we went to a restaurant he asked about me with actual interest. I believe he asked about both my job and education. He was pleased that I had my Associates Degree and told me about once selling houses. Once finding out that I was potentially interested in it he became very excited that maybe one day him and I could do it together. He ordered a steak and told me the next meal would be on him. He had this crude humor that was inappropriate and yet made him Will. There was moments when I would try to relate from my world and he would come back with his answer from his.

RIP Will. Thank you for surviving, finding me, and loving me. I know you did not plan to leave me like this.

meandwill

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